It hurts ...

most people think being teachers are easy. people can just simply send notes/memos/letters to you, your colleagues, your head or your dean complaining the deterioration of the students' writing quality. have these note/memo/letter writers had a minute spent to think of the reasons instead of simply sending complaints like they are that GOOD? i had a hard time today thinking what are there in the brains of my 18 ECONS/HS students. I have been so unhappy with their quality of writing. all they do is repeating the same old mistakes which have been emphasized, highlighted, explained, clarified, highlighted, explained, clarified and these same old same old steps are being repeated like an old broken transistor. what am i doing and what am i thinking? am i the idiot? am i the one who has been the pushy teacher who expects too much from their students when they can barely realize the existence the terms such as plural and singular? have they in their almost-15-years studying English come across these terms? what were they doing for the past 11 years of learning English? Is it my fault that they cannot catch up with the pace? or is it our fault in CELPAD that these students can barely write a single sentence that is grammatically correct? all i have is questions, i have no answers, no solutions and in fact no motivation and inspiration to do this anymore, am just drained, weary, worn out, shattered and most of all too frustrated. i for the past 3 weeks, i stood like an idiot in front of a group of people, who do not even bother to appreciate a single thing, who do not even care what they are doing, why there are there and where they are going ... i am the idiot one who thinks more than i should .. i worry to much about people who do not even care about themselves, starting tomorrow, all i am to care about is me, my study, my life, my project paper, my happiness my heart, myself .. all about my, my, my ... P/S : to those people who were just born to complain abt English teachers, you are most welcome to come and teach, feel it yourself plus before complaining, why don't you observe yourself or your staff whether their ENGLISH IS GOOD!