It has been some time since I last dropped by. I wasn't that busy, but I think I just didn't have anything much to say, or anything that is mind-boggling that I have to let go.
After the short semester, the marking for final exam and the marking for EPT, I actually feel that I didn't do much. I had 2 days off work before the meeting for the new intake and again, the exam and the marking... Having this in written, I suddenly felt a gush of boredom, lingering in my heart and my mind...
My life at work is nothing much, day in day out, I will see types of students. The ones who make you happy, the ones that make you cry, the ones that make you sick till you feel like giving up teaching, the ones that are there forever for you and many other 'the ones' ... hmmmmmm ( a long sigh ... just to let go of the weight that I carry ... of what, I wasn't very sure)
I suddenly feel very tired of this job, I wonder how teachers in the past dragged their life in this field for like 25 - 35 years... some even couldnt get enough, continue as contract teacher until they are 65 or so ... (am I gonna live that long?)
I dunno why I wrote all these ... I dunno why at certain time things seem to be extremely entangled ... I just feel that I wanna break away, away from all of these ... I hope things will change next week, I will change next week, I want my old self back, the confident, the happy-go-lucky and contented self back,
Dear God, grant me my wish, enlighten me with the ways to lighten all these ... Aminn ...
After the short semester, the marking for final exam and the marking for EPT, I actually feel that I didn't do much. I had 2 days off work before the meeting for the new intake and again, the exam and the marking... Having this in written, I suddenly felt a gush of boredom, lingering in my heart and my mind...
My life at work is nothing much, day in day out, I will see types of students. The ones who make you happy, the ones that make you cry, the ones that make you sick till you feel like giving up teaching, the ones that are there forever for you and many other 'the ones' ... hmmmmmm ( a long sigh ... just to let go of the weight that I carry ... of what, I wasn't very sure)
I suddenly feel very tired of this job, I wonder how teachers in the past dragged their life in this field for like 25 - 35 years... some even couldnt get enough, continue as contract teacher until they are 65 or so ... (am I gonna live that long?)
I dunno why I wrote all these ... I dunno why at certain time things seem to be extremely entangled ... I just feel that I wanna break away, away from all of these ... I hope things will change next week, I will change next week, I want my old self back, the confident, the happy-go-lucky and contented self back,
Dear God, grant me my wish, enlighten me with the ways to lighten all these ... Aminn ...
